Heather Demetrios Quotes

“If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you be?" I opened my mouth to say San Francisco or maybe Madrid-somewhere exotic. But what came out was, "Here. Right here.”

— Heather Demetrios

“I don't really know what it means to move on, but lately, with Sky, I'm starting to feel like I want to because when I look at her, I don't see you or the war or any of the shit in my head. I just see her, and it's like suddenly I can breathe again after holding my breath for so long.”

— Heather Demetrios

I had to tell him we were like a collage. Pieces that could be put back together in a new way, a better way. If I didn't say it now, I never would.

— Heather Demetrios

“He was the parts of the day where I smiled.”

— Heather Demetrios

“When the store was empty again, I buried my head in my hands. I hadn't realized how much Josh had been helping me get through the summer until he wasn't there anymore. I wanted him to ask me how the Sky was. And then I wanted him to make it stop raining.”

— Heather Demetrios

“The Josh I grew up around, with two legs and an ego that couldn't fit through the door? I didn't love him. I didn't even always like him." One corner of his mouth turned up. "This is who you are. The real you." I rested my forehead against his. "And I want you so fucking bad.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Hate is a lot like love. It's warm and fills you up until every part of you is tingling to release it.”

— Heather Demetrios

“It occurred to me that we were the same, in a way. Both of us treading water, pushing against forces we couldn't control.”

— Heather Demetrios

Maybe all those years when Josh was running around town, acting like an idiot, he was just trying to find a way to escape. Maybe that was what all of us were doing, in our different ways.

— Heather Demetrios

But my life had suddenly become a Taylor Swift song: breakups and heartache and other girls.

— Heather Demetrios

“Did he realize how he was sometimes able to say the perfect thing? Because if he was trying to get in my pants, it was working.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Kind of. Just-we don't know what happens when we die, right? I mean, maybe we go up to some perfect place in the sky, or maybe we turn to dust, or we're spirits and can still think and hear and go places. So talking to the person that's dead isn't crazy. They could be listening to you. Right?”

— Heather Demetrios

Why is it that some people in the world get to wake up in beautiful houses with fairly normal parents and enough food in the fridge while the rest of us have to get by on the scraps the universe throws at us? And we gobble them up, so grateful. What the hell are we grateful for?

— Heather Demetrios

“I didn't want him to go home and leave me to wrestle my demons alone.”

— Heather Demetrios

This, I think, is a little glimpse of what life could be like without my family. Home could be a place of laughter and love, a refuge. I'm filled with a terrifying weightlessness, like I've jumped off a cliff, but I know that if I don't look down, I'll be just fine.

— Heather Demetrios

“Might as well," she spit. "You know what it feels like, being friends with you guys? Do you have any idea how it sounds when you talk about how crappy this town is and how you'd rather die than end up saddled with a baby, living in a trailer park, broke as hell? Every time you say that, you're describing my life. A life I'm actually okay with-I'm sure as hell a lot happier than either of you.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Crap. Like I could just go out and buy a new one-Look at me, I'm so rich I can throw calculators around! I stood and picked it up, shook it. Still worked.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Nothing was your own except the few cubic centimetrrs inside your skull”

— Heather Demetrios

“She is a slave, with no way home.”

— Heather Demetrios

Chess and you taking a picture of me reading Slaughterhouse-Five, telling me I'd need proof someday because nobody in Creek View would ever believe I had actually read a goddamn book, let alone five. Talking about God and why there's evil in the world and bitching because the Steelers won the Super Bowl. Camp Leatherneck, me not missing home at all and you missing it like crazy, always talking about going to college and how when you had leave you were gonna marry Hannah. And you wanted kids, and I said I didn't because people like me, we just end up disappointing one another and I'd probably be like my dad, and you told me I had to get over it, get over my dad and my mom and how screwed up everything is because you said, Josh, you're gonna have it all. I know it. You're gonna have it all. And for the first time, I'm almost believing that.

— Heather Demetrios

She held up her hand. My forgiveness after years of insults will only be given to you if you come out with me tonight. Hooking up with Josh is strictly optional, but encouraged.

— Heather Demetrios

You know those primitive tribal people who believed a camera could steal your soul? Turns out they were right.

— Heather Demetrios

He looks like the kind of boy who would jump trains, strum guitars, and pass a joint.

— Heather Demetrios

“The past is past. You tried to kill yourself. So what? I humped a couch in season twelve. We all have our skeletons.”

— Heather Demetrios

“But I knew it was too much to wish that Creek View would be wiped off the face of the earth forever. The other towns needed us: you can't have the light without the dark, right? Maybe our darkness was necessary for other people to see their light.”

— Heather Demetrios

“The moon's not big enough to wish on. Nothing is.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Oh my God. Sky." Dylan stared at me, incredulous. "What?" I clutched at my dress, certain there was a big-ass rip in back or something. I pushed against her arm. "What?" "You just said love." "No, I didn't," I said quickly.”

— Heather Demetrios

“After graduation, we can just  ... ride into the sunrise," he says. "The sunrise?" His lips twitch. "If we ride into the sunset, we'd wind up in the middle of the Pacific.”

— Heather Demetrios

“I'm starting to realize that she's my only real friend in the world right now. I can't lose that. I've tried so hard to play it safe with her, and I thought I was doing okay until I went all wounded warrior on her and  ... fuck.”

— Heather Demetrios

“I'm tired. Like I-want-to-sleep-forever tired.”

— Heather Demetrios

That's disgusting," he said. "It should be illegal to put Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and mint together." "Yes, because your combo of pineapple and Snickers is a real winner.

— Heather Demetrios

“I'm not Bonnieâ„¢ or Chloe. I'm the essence of her, the nontrademarked person the camera can never capture and my parents have no right to sign over. There is a sovereign nation encased in this skin that MetaReel can never trademark.”

— Heather Demetrios

“He smiled, and I made the mistake of looking into those eyes. They were epic. Blue blue blue.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Even Mom doesn't understand how being in front of a camera all the time twists and warps you. How one second it makes you feel unbelievably alive and the next publicly strips you down until all that's left is one big question mark.”

— Heather Demetrios

I tried not to read anything into his being there; things like this weren't serendipitous when you lived in the smallest town ever.

— Heather Demetrios

“After a lifetime of wanting to be loved, she didn't think she could bear it if it finally happened just before she was about to die.”

— Heather Demetrios

I grabbed them and walked up to the glass door. He turned around, realizing his mistake, and I held them up. He shook his fist at the sky and started walking back, but I pulled open the door and ran out.

— Heather Demetrios

Fourteen Kids, Two Dads, One Mom, Two Nannies, Two Tutors-and a Partridge in a Pear Tree.

— Heather Demetrios

“He doesn't know either." She stopped and faced me. "Have you ever thought that maybe you're helping him figure that out?”

— Heather Demetrios

“Everything I was doing was like this chess game-full of second guesses, indecision, waiting.”

— Heather Demetrios

“My hands were sticky with glue, and I hummed along to Sia, playing in the background.”

— Heather Demetrios

“To me, it felt like such a failure. I never thought my mom and I would get that low. I wasn't ready to admit defeat.”

— Heather Demetrios

If I were a real Creek View girl, the kind Josh liked, I'd be hammered right now, not thinking about my dead father.

— Heather Demetrios

“My life was being planned in sentences that started with 'We' instead of 'I', yet it felt like the most natural transition in the world.”

— Heather Demetrios

“His brown eyes filled with worry, and I wished, not for the first time, that my heart could love him in a different way. It would have been so easy. So nice.”

— Heather Demetrios

“How was I going to get through life without Chris and Dylan right there, whenever I needed them?”

— Heather Demetrios

Look at this beautiful world!

— Heather Demetrios

“I stood up. You're going. With Billy. To Florida?”

— Heather Demetrios

“I didn't know there were so many ways to say I love you.”

— Heather Demetrios

“Skylar's obviously into that Chris dude, I saw them in his sorry excuse for a truck, should have totaled it when I had the chance,”

— Heather Demetrios